I normally don't vent publicly like this, but I feel it should be informed.
For those who aren't aware or didn't see my recent twitter post, just to let you know I'm taking a break from art. It has been stressing me out for a while. My tolerance for errors in art has been decreasing drastically, I've been overcriticizing myself to the point I'd scrap any WIP that is not great at my taste- in short I've been slowly turning into a perfectionist and I hate it. The fact I am actually an impatient artist and I always believed that balancing speed with quality is key to find success in an art career doesn't help neither, my tolerance for errors and other people's criticism has decreased drastically.
Yes, I've dreamed about getting an art-related career in the future.
But I doubted my wish. If I ever actually hop into that career, I must learn how to draw even if I don't want to. Meaning I felt the need to constantly overwork myself. And I'd have to go under people's standards, if I don't draw as they ask, then I won't be paid and I may even be fired. All this time I wanted to be prepared for my dream career- felt pressured to draw stuff for people as much as I could, overworked myself, overcritcized my art, etc. The practice to hop into that job has become a nightmare to me.
If practicing for a career and to please people stresses me out this much, it is better I either take a very long break from it and learn to pace myself. Or as for the career, I choose something else. But I don't know what I'll do. I'm still in high school by the way so I have less than 2 years to figure that out.
Anyways, I hope you understand this and I'm sorry for any disappointments. See you when I'll feel better.